Reimagining Resilience

Category: Chapter 2- Treatment

  • Round 6- now we get a break

    Round 6 is over. It was the last round for this “chapter” of treatment. Finally, a week later I feel well enough to write an update. It’s no exaggeration that the cycles get harder and harder to get over. I apologize if I’ve ghosted you in the last week. I promise it’s not you, it’s…

  • Round #5

    The fog of round 5 is lifting and the light of the end of this tunnel is starting to peak through. Dimly, but I can see it. The bounce back hasn’t been coming easy these days but with the support of loved ones and the knowledge that the end to this chapter is coming, we…

  • Parenting while going through cancer treatment

    I’m exhausted. Every parent is exhausted. Exhausted is baseline once you’re responsible for someone other than yourself. Their lack of sleep becomes yours, their lack of peace becomes yours, their sickness becomes yours. All of these things are true even for the most well-balanced parent/family. Not to anyone’s surprise, my family isn’t well balanced right…

  • Round #4

    Today I’m sharing a picture that to you may look like an ordinary picture of a mother reading to her child. This was the “day after”in December when I received my diagnosis. I was a complete wreck and shell version of myself. Everything we were being told/reading about was abysmal. We had no plan, no…

  • Round #3

    My friends I wish I could report that this week has been a cake walk, but it’s been quite the opposite. They warn you that the side effects get worse as rounds progress and in my case they’re right. I’ll spare the details but its been rough. I’m recovering at my in-laws’ home in Jacksonville…

  • Bald is beautiful, but you probably won’t see it

    I’m living in constant contradiction right now trying to find my most authentic self. I’m sick but also not. I’m healthy but also not. I have to parent like I’m not going through cancer treatments and I have prioritize myself and health like I’m not a parent. WOOF Emotions flood me like a tidal wave.…

  • Round #2

    Overwhelming gratitude and God’s goodness is how I feel coming out of round 2. I have felt your prayers in how I have responded to treatment this week. Thank you to all of you who have checked in on us. Cullen did not accompany me on the trip south this time and I know that…

  • In my Moira Rose era

    Traditionally, in February I take a lead from Leslie Knope’s (Parks and Rec) playbook and I host a Galentine’s brunch. Galentine’s, as it’s name suggests is all about my Gals, girlfriends, lady loves. I love this tradition because since becoming a mom, its’s been harder and harder to show up for my friends the same way…

  • Round 1

    Monday the 22nd I had my first round of chemotherapy at the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville. Cullen accompanied me this round. My dad and stepmom (papa and mimi) came from Maine to help out with our children and in managing our home while we were gone. I cannot stress enough, how grateful I am to those who…